I'm feeling much better..
Though I admit that I'm still avoiding home.
I'll get over it soon..
And I'll pretend like nothing happened.

The boyfriend said something that I'll never forget:

"Be the better person even if people don't expect you to be.

So when your pay comes, do exactly as you planned to do.

You don't have to say you heard anything, just move on and do what is right.

People will realize by themselves how wrong they've been..

People always do this.. We never realize that we're taking someone for granted.."

His words doesn't exactly make me feel better, but it makes sense..
There's nothing I can do about it now.
All I can do is to prove them wrong once the time comes..

And while waiting for the time to come, I'll have as much fun as I can :)
Meow's birthday is today!
I'm so hyped!
We're planning to do something nice for her..
But we wont tell exactly what (Yet)!
She may read this!
*Giggles*


Oh, and I'm LOVING this song!
Paramore just released the music video today :p

I wish

The person who thought of the phrase "What you don't know can't hurt you" must have been wise.
Because it's so true.
Sometimes, you're not meant to hear some things for a reason..

I wish I hadn't asked my parents about how Amanah Saham worked.
I wish I had just Googled it and tried to understand it on my own.
I wish they didn't jump to the conclusion that I planned to keep my first 'real' paycheck tucked away in a trust fund.
I wish they didn't think that I was so selfish.

But most of all, I wish I hadn't over heard them say that..

I have always planned to give my parents my first pay check.
It has been something I've always wanted to do.
But money wasn't the point- I knew that they didn't need it.
Twas supposed to be a gesture.
To show that I'll provide for them & that I'll always share with the family..

Over hearing what they thought of me hurt more then I ever expected it to.
It's a different kind of hurt when you find out that those you most cherish doesn't seem to see much good in you.
It has never hurt like this before.
Ever.

I guess this is the price you pay for being so busy.





PS: My pay hasn't come through yet.
I'm guessing it will by the end of the month.
I'm still going to give it to my parents. 
But I know the moment will not be as sweet as I've always imagined it'll be..

OBSESSED

Scene: On bed, in front of the lappy looking at new accessories revising my mooting script.

Mom: What are you doing? (Sounds annoyed)
Me: Uh?
Mom:You've been twirling and sniffing your hair for over an hour!
Me:Oh. (continues to swirl and sniff hair)


I am obsessed with my hair.
It's FINALLY long enough for me to play with!
(This is a great feat since my hair grows at a snails pace! Meh.)
And THIS time I swear that I'll let it grow.
I will NOT butcher my hair like I did the last time.
My new mantra:

I will not cut my hair.
I will not cut my hair.
I will NOT cut my hair.

Yes, I get bored easily.

Anyways, I took a security measure..
Meow get's to slap me if I try talking myself into getting a short do again. (=_=)"
(I think she's a lil too happy with the job)

And I finally let myself try this!

I have never tried the brand but I always wanted to.. The scent is so yummy!
It leaves my hair smelling like berries for at least a day- and when the smell is all gone, I'll wash it again just to get the smell back. Meh.

I'm not sure if really helps my hair. So far, it's alright. It does it's job as a shampoo.
The only thing winning me over is the smell!

I feel prettiest when I'm all clean & smell good~
Haha!





When I get my first real pay check, the first thing I'm gonna look for is a REALLY good shampoo with a killer scent!
(If this one doesn't work out.. I hope it does!)
I think it's high time I start pampering myself again..
Oh, and my hair is so pretty now~ 
Uber happy! 

My Poor Neglected Bloggie!

I am SUCH a bad blogger!
Epic fail doesn't even begin to describe it.
I'm guessing this is about the 3rd time I've had this burst of enthusiasm to blog again since I created this page (=_=)"

Anyways, I have a new resolution!
I know I have been super busy with Avant La Mode, Working & Mooting.
Heck, part of the reason why I stopped blogging was because there's allegedly 'implications' of owning a blogshop.
*pfft!*

So here's to the revival of my personal blog!
And THIS time, I don't have a reason to hide it!





PS: I got my TAMA!
(Though it's pre loved)
I'll introduce it to ya all later!

(>____<)"

The males in this household needs me.
This is what I have figured out during the short span of taking care of things while mummy is away..
Here's the top 5 reasons they need me:

5. To remind them that they have an appointment or have something to do where time is of the essence.

4. To get them to sleep in their own beds and NOT on the couch (or *gasp!* the toilet).

3. To drive them around.

2. To get them food.

1. To flush the toilet!

I am tempted to stick a "Please flush the toilet after you've completed" sign on the toilet wall.
Seriously.





PS, Still no news on the Tamagotchis  (is that how you spell Tamagotchi plurally?).
Keeping my fingers crossed though..

Dang!

I missed blogging!
So so much..
My poor neglected bloggie~

I guess updating Avant La Mode everyday was more work then I thought.
But it's so worth it.
Like mooting, it makes me feel like I've actually achieved something..
If someone were to come up to me and say that I'll be running a blogshop all by myself last year, I'd laugh at them.
Now, I cant imagine not doing it.
The thrill of seeing your items sold out is amazing.
Even more so since I've built everything from scratch- all by myself..
(Ok, not ALL by myself- I'd totally die if the boyfriend, Meow & Keyla didn't help me out. Heh.)

Oh, and we're having our finals now.
As per usual, I am not studying.
And I just know that I'll kick myself when I realize that I don't have enough time to study.
Meh.

I'll study after dinner.
Promise.





PS- I'll FINALLY live my childhood dream of owning a Tamagotchi!
Hahaha. Noob, I know. But I SO want it!

I've hooked up with somebody who is willing to sell me two!
*Fingers Crossed!*

OoooooOooooooo...

I cannot get that stupid song outta my head.
Barbra Streisand.
Heh.
I swear, this is the most annoying song ever made.
Ever.
So much for creative lyrics..

Anywho.. I committed two huge boo-boos today.
All in one course: Criminal Law II.
1) I did not study for the test.
2) I sent in my test sheet early- as in, I was the ONLY one to send in the sheet early.
Good lord!

And no, this is NOT because I feel that Criminal law is easy peasy.
*Or maybe I'm just writing faster??*
I just cant seem to force myself to study at home.
And by 11, I'll get all sleepy.
My brain shuts down.
I am getting old.
Old and lazy.
Sheesh.

And I also blame LRM.



On the other hand, business is doing great.
Haha.
Maybe I can be a lawyer/Businesswoman?
Double whammy indeed :)

Gahhhh!!! Part 2

I have wasted ONE hour on the net.
Trying and FAILING miserably at attempting to find a stupid case.
Yeah, what a great mooter I am..
Suddenly I realise that I'd be dead meat without my dear Z.
Heh.

Oh! YAY!
Never mind.. I've found it!
Good lord!
I have to start learning how to effectively use Lexis Nexis..
Blegh!

I've been neglecting my personal blog..
And had been busy with the *ahem* "other" blog.
Haha.
We'll be premiering in UiTM at Law Faculty's No Wine And Cheese Party.
*Fingers Crossed*
I hope things goes well.
I SO need to recover my seed money :)

Next batch OTW!








Oh, and to the course work..
You are KILLING me!
Gaaahhh!!!

Gaaah!!!

Just found out that my legal research topic is UNAVAILABLE.
After weeks of finalizations.
Today you tell me?!
So now, back to square one.
Yippie.

Oh well.
At least now we're researching on firearms.
Something well within my scope of interest.
Heh.
Ended up researching on how you can kill (or at least grievously hurt) somebody using a paintball marker.
I researched that if you modify it well enough, you really can hurt somebody.
Cool.
I wonder if we can play 'myth busters' and try to do it ourselves..
No?
Ben can play the role of the human-like crash test dummy ;)
I promise we won't kill you..









Going to Astaka tomorrow. 
For our 'research'.
I hope I can open fire.
Been wanting to try it out for SO long.
Tee-hee.

Suddenly

Now that Jessup is over, I really don't know how to feel.
Losing- especially when we're so far down the road hurt more than I've ever expected.
Leaving me unsure.
I thought that packing my bags and leaving was what I wanted.
But now.. I'm not so sure.

As usual, I poured my woes on the boyfriend.
And for all the brain cells I have, I couldn't see what he saw;
That this meant a lot to me. I have never cried so hard (even when I'm alone) like I did on that day.
I sobbed like a child in his arms.
And when he uttered that his girlfriend is not a quitter.. And that I should square my shoulders and kick some ass next year- That hit a nerve.
Because I planned to do exactly that.
Quit.

I don't know if 2 weeks to make up my mind is enough.
Because in all honesty, I truly believe that the team will fare better without me.








But I still enjoyed my holidays!
I ate so much!
Shark fin soup overload!
*Grins*
I LOVE this.


ps: I have not even touched any of my assignments.
AND I have a test on Monday.
I am such a bloody genius.
   

OUT!

I am not myself lately.
I know I'm a klutz.. And I forget things..
But now, I can't even remember what day it is (=.=)"

Today, I thought my class was at Menara.
It wasn't.
It's on Thursday. Today's Wednesday you twit.
*Sigh*
When I finally JOGGED back to Cempaka- to my supposed class.
Twas empty.
Only THEN did I remember that the lecturer mentioned that there's NO CLASS today.
*Bash head on wall*

Oh well, at least now I've done my day's worth of jogging.
Meh.






Jessup is this weekend!
Hurry up! 
I want this over and done with so that I can enjoy my *tong-tong-chang* CNY hols!


P/S: Funny how I'm more impatient than nervous.
Hmmm... But then again, the nervousness will kick in soon enough..

The Simple Things

My 21st birthday came and went..
Without a party, a birthday cake nor even a full birthday song.
When the clock struck 12, I was in the moot court.
Still franticly putting in the finishing touches on our memorials.
By the time I finally managed to escape the court, the boyfriend was already asleep.
I got a sleepy "Happy Birthday".
Daddy has food poisoning and the lil bro has another bout of his allergies.
The kid's eye swelled up to the size of golf balls.
So dinner was cut short and back to the moot court to submit the memorials.
My day ended in the moot court- again.

But I can never say that I wasn't happy.
Because I spent my birthday doing something that mattered- Jessup.
I spent it with the 4 people in the faculty that I would do almost anything for.
And I know that they would do the same for me.

I met Meow for lunch and had a good laugh.
Even managed to work out with the Bestie..
I realized that I may not have many friends, but those I got- are real.
And in the end, that is all that matters.

The family may be sick, but they still dragged themselves out of bed just to have  dinner with me.
To do that for a small night out is worth all the iPhones in the world.
The kid even had to get a jab. (=.=)"


The Boyfriend surprised me with a bouquet of roses.
21 roses for my 21 years.

Twas so sweet :)
Most importantly, he treats me like a rose everyday.
Finally, a man who understands that I don't need nor even want everything in the world.
A woman just needs to be treated right.


So I don't feel sorry for me.
Because I'm one of the lucky few who has everything a person needs in life.

Maybe not so buta jalan at 21

I’ve finally (!) Figured out how to get to Klang’s Post office.
After a week of trying.
Meh.
Sometimes, you can’t just wait for somebody to hand over the directions to you.
You have to do it yourself and via the old fashion way- Get on the road and stop to ask for directions.
I guess the old ways are the best.
(Google maps DID NOT help one bit!)
I managed to find the place in only an hour.
(This is a MAJOR feat to me!)

Again, simply being nice to others works wonders!
Some even drew maps for me.
And although you guys won’t read this, Thank you!

We’re supposed to hand in out memorials tomorrow.
And the trainers are going to check our work in a couple of hours.
*Gulp*
So to calm my nerves and to relax after a day of stressing out editing points of law that I’m not very sure of- I did my nails. *Bahaha!*

Left

Right

Thumb, index & pinkie fingers in Elianto's Grape Wine
Middle & ring fingers in Orly's Sand Castle

I think I’m having a good nail week.

This time the application was flawless.

I normally have problems applying Orly and Elianto nail polishes..

(=.=)”

PS- Look what I picked up from the post office!

(These are mine~)

To those who purchased some together with me, You’ll get yours soon!

Waiting

I have one class today. One!
Woke up late and left the house in a hurry. Went through the effing tol to cut the jam and spent a good 20 mins trying to find a parking space. Then ran (in high heels) all the way to the top floor of Cempaka 1- just to find that the lecturer is not coming.
Meh.
I should've stayed in and slept.
And yes, my biological clock is still a complete mess.

Now here I am in the kamar hakim.
Waiting for Iceman & Mr tupai to go for our daily training for Jessup.
And yes, I'd rather wait for them then enter the lion's den all by myself.
Safety in numbers perhaps?







And though we've been training everyday, I still haven't gotten the hang of mooting in a court setting.
And the fact that I know almost zilch about IL and IHL does not help matters.
I'm starting to feel like I don't deserve this.
Shall try to talk Izzat into taking my place.
But I have a sinking feeling that it wouldn't work.
I'm screwed. T.T

Yup, EPIC failure

Soooo...
Here's the thing, I'm SUPPOSED to save up.
You see, I'm dead broke.
Hence, the feeble attempt to start a blogshop to help ease my financial pain.
(Though I'm STILL hoping that the blogshop will work out.)
*Prays*

Anyways, my buying a new creme foundation (Benefit's Some Kind-a gorgeous) did NOT help matters.
Ugh.
*Flying kick muka sendiri*
But I was SO taken by the uber cute packaging!
(And the recommendation from Elle roped me in too..)

 

BUT I've come to realise that the packaging was the only thing I liked about it!
What the hell was Elle thinking??
I hated this!

1.It smelled foul. Seriously, I didn't expect it to smell good. But for god's sake, this makes my face smell funny! My boy will not want to snuggle near my face with this thing on!

2. It's so sheer, it can't even qualify as a primer! I keep needing to reapply and reapply and reapply to make sure it gives me the coverage I want. Which brings us to the next problem...

3. There's not really much product! For the price of this thing, one would expect it to have a lil more substance. At this rate, I'll hit the pan by next week and it'll all be gone by next month. NOT worth the money.

4. I thank god that He's blessed me with good skin. Because this thing is quite oily. Even when it has 'dried' and morphs into a powder-ish finish. I've heard that some people's faces breaks out when they use this!
*Gulp!*

Long story short, this thing's over rated.
DO NOT GET THIS!

On the other hand, I love this;

The Face Shop's Aqua Drop Sleeping Pack

I've only been using it for over a week but so far, it has served it's purpose :)
My face is moisturised and I (Somewhat) get that dewy look when I wake up.
So I'm happy enough.
But the best part is (atleast for me la~) the fact that if 'melts' on your skin!
It changes textures from a creme to H2O-like liquid.
It's really fun to play with.
Bahaha!






I've drawn a small calender- 15 days till my accessories arrive.
Am being an impatient twit- but I don't care!!!