One down

Yesterday was our first anniversary.
My very first anniversary.
As far as relationships go, this one is definitely a land mark case. (Heh.)

But now I truly understand why relationships don't last.
It's not because people in failed relationships are lesser beings, it's just the way we are.
We drift apart, find new goals or worse, get tired of each other.
It's a cycle.
I'm not ashamed of admitting that I go through it too (minus the getting tired of him part).

I guess it was my fault too.
I had this fairy tale image of our anniversary.
I didn't imagine it to be perfect.. But I did expect it to be a happy occasion.
The last thing I expected was a fight filled with underlying sarcasm and awkward pauses.
It came to a point where I felt a deeper sense of belonging to my moot mates.
All I wanted to do was go back to court and be with them though I know that I'll have to moot too.
And it breaks my heart.
What does that make me??
A boyfriendless and friendless person who can only relate herself with the people she works with.

I strive on work.
It's my very own safe zone.

Maybe our time is up.
It doesn't matter that I still want him in my life- when it comes down to it, I'll have to be fair to him too.

Nobody can have it all.
It's my turn to bite the bullet.









Am supposed to have dinner with him today.
I have no idea how it will end up.
But a girl can hope right?
Anyways, if all goes down the drain- there's always moot training.

STRESS!!!

NOTHING is going my way.
I'm swamped with work, stressed with my obvious lack of social life and definitely pissed with everything in the universe (including moi).

Heck, I don't even think it's karma anymore.

Even I don't deserve this kind of shit.

I'm now totally convinced that the universe hates my guts..

***
I was diagnosed with fatigue. (Well done captain obvious! Sheesh.)
I'm supposed to get some rest.
3 days off.
But how the hell am I supposed to do that with so many other things to do??
Am eating my meds though.. I hope that's enough.


***
Announcement to all my lovely mooters;
This will be my LAST time mooting while the semester is on.
I admit it, I'm a fucking wimp for not being able to balance this, but better a happy wimp then a bitter superwoman.
All things aside, I still adore you guys.
(Oh, and please help break the news to Sir. I need back up. Tee-hee.)

***

When the boyfriend told me to stop making him wait for me only to and up empty handed, I was wounded.

Yes, I do realise that I was the one who asked him out to lunch.
Can you even blame me?
I haven't spent quality time with him in ages!
I really did try to make it, but I couldn't.
I had work to do.
And I had to make some arrangements for OUR anniversary.
I thought I could attempt in making a grand gesture.
OBVIOUSLY that was a total flop.
*Sigh*

I'm sorry I made you wait.
(Including all the other times I put you aside for my work.)
It was my fault.
If only you knew how bad and frustrated I felt..

***
One of the reasons why I couldn't make it was because my lappy got sick. AGAIN.
And I just spent RM70 for anti-virus.
Now I'll have to pay another RM40 for repairs.
Fuck.

I am now officially broke.
Makan Maggi cup la minggu ni..

Things MUST turn up.
I've hit rock bottom.
I still cant believe I had a breakdown (In public! Gahh!!).
I predict that if I don't slow down within the next 2 weeks, I'll go crazy.
Heh.

Issit 5 yet?

I'm blogging in UiTM's Pusat Kesihatan- while waiting for my number to be called.
Yup, I had time to freakin walk all the way to my car parked at the international building and walk all the way back here to finish up some of my work.
If I brought my Lappy with me from the start, I'd be finished with my statement of facts!
(=.=)"

I wonder what's taking them so long.
It's after 5, when I got here the place was bustling, now it's is almost deserted..

I cant believe I'm sick. AGAIN.
This is not good.
Mom thinks it's because of fatigue.
I hope not.
This is NOT the time for me to start getting weak.

I'm guessing the boyfriend is gonna get pissed at me- Again.
Anyways, who wants to tell their other half that they're sick?
It'll only worry him.
I know I'm just fine.
Sheesh.







Ugh, why is it sooo fucking slowww??
Opps! My number's up! (Finally!)
Maybe they could sense me dissing them?
Better not complain too much.
It's free medicine after all..

I love u guys, Really.

I made a boo-boo.
No.
I HUGE boo-boo.
I cant believe I fucking missed Meow's and Am's birthday bash!!!
I totally spaced out during today's moot practise (which was my fault- Stupid Intellectual property! I will never take up that subject!! Ever!!!) and therefore, by the end of the day, all I could think about was my nice comfy bed.
Only when I'm home and just about to get ready for bed did I see the pretty pictures of the bash all over FB.
(T.T)

SO freakin' cute! I want one..

I'm so sorry guys.. Especially the birthday girls; (from left; Am and Meow.)

Please do forgive me..
I really did want to tag along.
I wonder why nobody called me?
Ugh, no matter, twas totally my own fault :/
Sob..Sob..


Hope you guys had a bangin' time!
Lets have a get together again soon!
Peace!

Haha.

And as expected, moots did NOT last for only half a day.
And with only two weeks left from LawAsia, we've just managed to sort out the claimant's points.
So no movies for me any time soon.
And next week's weekend shall be booked for mooting too.
Sheesh.
I need to get a life.

Jinxed

I think I'm being punished.
EVERY TIME I get a break from mooting, I fall sick :/
The ONE day off from Maritime training, I had a fever.
The ONE day I flake from training, I barfed all over the bathroom floor.
(I'm guessing that's karma. So, no more flaking for me. Cis.)
And the one day I had the day off (with permission, I might add!) I had a bangin' headache.
Great.

Does this mean that I have to moot to keep myself from getting sick??
OH NO!!!
I'm gonna grad as a super geek.
I just know it! (T.T)

I desperately want to go out and just have fun, but I have SO much to do.
Research, assignments and scripts. All undone.
Oh, not to mention all my pending social obligations..
Sigh.
Kill me now.







Tomorrow's Sunday. And it's reserved for mooting.
Though it might be a lil naive, I'm hoping it'll only last half a day.
I wanna watch 'Inception' SO badly.
Oh wait.. That might also have to wait.
BEL presentation still not done.
Shit.

Monkey Attack

Looks like getting a kolej is gonna be harder than i thought..
Since the number of asasians and new part 1 BLS students are hitting their all time high, the rest of the students are chucked into the back-burner.
Great, THAT'S fair.
Sheesh.

Thank god for moots I guess..
It's amazing what a letter of recommendation can do.
Suddenly the admin staff works trice as hard to help you and a (normally) month worth of waiting was cut down into 2 days!
(Looks like there are perks to all the hard work after all. Tee-hee)

For the first time, I (finally!) get to stay in Kenanga.
Yay! That means I can wake up at 8 am and NOT be late for my 8.30 classes.
*Grins*

Plus, I can go to the library anytime I want.
And more importantly, I can actually get internet access from the comfort of my own room!

Ohh! And I DO NOT have a room mate!
I get the whole room all to myself.
Perfect.
Now I don't have to consider the comfort of another person when I wanna make a total mess :)

This. Is. Great!






Now if only I can make the "Kenanga's Haunted!" taunts from my friends to stop and find a way to ward off all the annoying-food-stealing monkeys playing around in the corridor, everything would truly be perfect~

News from Sydney

MARA's Law school has managed to keep up their winning streak in IMLAM (International Maritime Law arbitration Moots)!
Though we won by a VERY small margin.. But hey, a win is a win right??

Wins against;
1. Melbourne Uni (Respondent's win)
2. South Hampton Uni (Respondent's win)
3. Universitas Padjajaran (Claimant's win)

Next battle, Hong Kong Uni. (Claimant)*Gulp!*

Am hoping that we can make it to the next round! *crosses fingers*
It'll be a nice trade up from all the losses we had suffered throughout the years..
Plus, letting down our trainers isn't really an option.








We also had a little sight seeing projects while we're in Sydney :)
Though the weather is too bloody cold, we still managed to go on an all day trip outdoors~
The place is beautiful!
Shall be back with the pics!
p/s: I miss the boyfriend.
New goal before I graduate; Travel with him.
Tee-hee.