This is one of those shitty weeks.
What with the various 'surprise' quizzes and tests thrown my way without due warning. Ergo, the next thing I knew, I was looking at the question papers and my head was filled with "..........."
Shit.
Oh! and not forgetting my mooting and the replacement classes.. It was a funny arrangement.. I had to replace my Constitution class during my Mandarin class. Hence, I must later replace my Mandarin class as I cannot be in two places at once now can I?? Haih, redundant kan?
So I'd figured that since I'm in my grouchy!-will-bite-your-head-off! mode, most of the people around me would be smart enough to NOT to pull hanjingsialpunyepalat acts on me. But apparently, I've overestimated their intelligence.
Honestly, I have no qualms of being the topic of gossips. Lets face it, I'm not exactly the 'friend-to-all' type and I'm definitely not a goody-two-shoes. So yeah, there are things about me that they can pick on. And really, some of them ARE really outrageous! My friends and I will roll on the floor laughing at how stupid it all is!
Plus, I ain't a virgin to malicious gossips either. A man-eater? boyfriend stealer? whore? Ice-queen? Money grabbing-bitch? Hah! Been there, done that. Heck, I was even confronted by a crazy bitch who followed me into the KTM just to yell at me and accuse me of stealing and sleeping with her boyfriend. The whole thing was in public and the whole damn tram was dead quiet, just waiting to see if there'll be a cat fight. Haha! Yeah, I did know the guy, but I've never even said a word to him! In the end, all I felt for the girl was pity. How desperate can you get to do something like that?? It's social suicide yo!
After that, things kinda got routine. The same old rumours, just different faces.
By now, I've learnt to deal with it. I can even (truly) laugh off all the bad gossips about me -when I have my friends around me, that is. The whole thing seems different when you have people to keep you safe and back you up when you need it. But what happens when you're alone is a whole different thing. When you finally get to think about it, you see how ugly things are and you feel it- the stabbing pain. Please, EVERYBODY feels it, to some degree. I just thank god that the more this happens, the less I feel.
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At first I was quite amused, was my company worth enough for a guy to actually PAY for it?? Hmm.. Just for the heck of it, maybe I SHOULD ask for payments. HEHE. Extra pocket money for me~ My friends and I even thought that I WOULD be a good escort and that I can pull of a New York style escort. Ergo, they now call me 'New York'. Heh.
But all the fun and games ended when I found out that my friend really did take the gossip seriously. I didn't blame him. He wasn't used to slander as I was. And I do remember how painful it was to be ridiculed like that. Twas not easy to forget. I felt so bad for him. He now thinks that everybody hates him. He'd even suggested that we don't go out anymore. Whatthefuck?! Like I'll roll with that! Gossip mongers, Mind your own fucking business!
Another gossip about a person I care for almost got me scaling up the wall! Before I knew it, I was seeing red and was spewing all the profanities available in my vocabulary (Twas pretty extensive!). I even want as far as to threaten them if they dared to repeat the gossip. The reasons why I have relationships and who I choose is none of your fucking business!
Great, now they can add crazy bitch to the long list. But hey, I can't help it. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY disses my loved ones in my presence and gets away with it.
Ironically, when asked WHERE did they get all these gossips from, nobody seems to know. They've heard it from a friend who heard it from a friend.. bla..bla..blah.. Sheesh. Since when was it cool to believe shit like these? I mean, REALLY, some of the gossips just doesn't make sense. Have our common sense dwindled THAT much??
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Wait! Don't answer that!
It'll just make us all feel worse.
(T.T)"
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