Si Malang

Sunday.
Or more importantly, the only day off from training since god knows how long..
And I'm spending it in bed with a bangin' headache.
Great.

Oh, and did I mention that I've lost my voice too?
Now, not only is it a pain for me to think about how to answer the panel's never ending questions, I'll also have to deal with painfully forcing my voice out. Sheesh.

I'm sick, tired, mopey, grumpy and definitely emotional.
Nothing seems to be going my way these past few weeks.
I know I've singed myself onto this 'joy ride' and I should not be bitter about it, but it's just so draining.
I'm getting nowhere with my training and my relationship's falling apart.
It's just too frustrating.

I just want to relax. Feel free. With nothing to bog me down.
I miss the days where the the only thing I have to worry about is to get to class on time.

I just need a good day off.









The boyfriend is coming for a visit tomorrow.
I hope that we manage to fix this 'fib' between us because I don't think I can handle the additional stress.

Oh, Money!

My baby no1 (lappy) is sick!
Need to repair it ASAP!
Or at least before I leave for Maritime moots. *Sigh*
This is NOT the best time for this to happen :(
And this is gonna cost me around RM 400.
I hope I can find a bargain and fix it for less then that!

Why do I feel like my dosh is flying outta my wallet in an incredibly scary pace??
Between printing, food, shopping and gas expenditures.. I'm going broke!
*sob.sob*

Maybe I need to get a part time job?
Hmm.. But I don't think my trainers would like that very much.
Heh.
I guess I just have to make do with what I have..
Thank god daddy agreed to help me pay for the repairs..
But still! (=.=)"









Father's day is around the corner.
He even dropped some clues on what he wants! *smacks hand on forehead*
Need to get that before I start training tomorrow~
Oh no.. TRAINING.
God help me.

-

Help me.
Because I cant seem to understand how some women manage to do this..

How exactly do you balance your career/ambitions and your personal life?
When you suddenly realize that you cant have both, how do you decide which is more important?
When do you finally KNOW which one is the right choice?
Because I pray to god that I wont wake up one day and find myself wondering how did I get things so wrong..

I know I may bitch about working so hard and STILL not getting to where I want to be, but I really do want to be great. I wanna be the best there is- and I know that getting there is going to be a major pain and I'll have to sacrifice some very important things to get there..

But am I doing the right thing in sacrificing him?
Though I can easily point the finger to him and say that he's SUPPOSED to be supportive and understand what I'm going through, I can't really do that..
Because I know that he has tried to be there for me and had made all the sacrifices just so that he could be my pillar when I'm down.
And to have him come into the picture only when I need him (or have the time for him) is unfair- to say the least.

Lets get real here..
Where else can I find somebody who'll so willingly put things on hold and put me before himself?
Sometimes I have to wonder.. Had I ever done the same for him?
Though I love and adore him, I cant help but think that (sometimes) I'm such a bitch for doing this to him.

I must train to get better, but that takes (literally) the WHOLE day.
And he want to spend time with me- time that I do NOT have.
I wish I could just split myself into two. (=.=)"







He says he wants to make it work.
And I'm going to fight to my last breath to keep both my ambitions and him within my grasp.
Heh.
Again, I need fucking sleep!

Generation Y

A 15 year old student, Josie Ratley, was badly beaten on school grounds by another teen (Wayne Treacy) who has never even met her.
Josie's injuries landed her in a coma and she had to undergo surgery to remove bits of her skull twice because of her brain's swelling.
She had only recently regained consciousness.

The whole thing started when her friend, Kayla Mason- who does not have a mobile phone, started using Josie's phone to send text messages to her boyfriend, Wayne.

Josie, who does not approve of Kayla's relationship with Wayne, told Wayne (reportedly, rudely) that she does not like him and made some inappropriate references to Wayne's older brother who had committed suicide (Wayne was the one who first found his brother's body hanging from a tree) via SMS.

Reportedly, Wayne got so angry, he put on his steel toed boots and rode 3 miles to the school- On the way, sending text messages to his friends saying that he'll kill Josie.

When he reached the school, Kayla pointed out Josie to Wayne and he attacked her by assaulting her head numerous times before a teacher managed to tear him away.

Wayne was recently charged as an adult for attempted murder.
He shall be carted off to an adult prison.

Cases like these gives our generation a BAD reputation.
We're not all like this.. (Though I do admit that we have some bad seeds in the bunch)
I feel kinda bad reading all the feed-backs from the reports.
the comments can basically be interpreted as;
"The young generation is SO fucked up!"

Which is a grossly unfair assumption to make.
To say that ALL TEENS nowadays do not have 'restraint' or 'common sense' is a tad too harsh don't you think?
Even I can safely say that this is a one-off case.
And for what it's worth, both of these kids have this commin'..
One is just plain rude and inconsiderate (ever heard of the phrase "think before you speak"??) while the other is a violent hot-headed punk.
Bad seeds indeed.







Am sorry but I'm not in a very forgiving mood.
call me cruel, but I'm having hard time feeling any sympathy to either of them.

God, I need sleep.

Adult-Breast Feeding?!

Not to be disrespectful but.. this is ridiculous!

Distributing women's breast milk to make their colleagues 'family'??
And there's even a debate about HOW the breast milk should be given??!
(O.o)"
I don't know which is a more appropriate response.. Should I laugh or cry?

Way back in Sekolah Agama, we did learn about this..
But strictly fallowing procedure, how is this ever going to work?

1. Aren't you supposed to be infants for this to take effect? I'm VERY sure the ladies' colleagues are NOT under 2.

2. FIVE fulfilling 'sessions'?! Do they have any idea how much breast milk THAT'S gonna take?? We're talking about filling up grown men here. I'm sure NO woman can manage that!

3. What about women who aren't lactating? Don't tell me that they'll ask the woman to get pregnant just for this to happen..

4. What's this nonsense about suckling the milk directly from the woman's breast?? In what way is that even 'brotherly'? The act will definitely bring fourth a lot of 'feelings' but NOTHING 'brotherly'. I can put my money on that!

I cant help but feel like this is just another platform for men to abuse women.
I know.. I SHOULD NOT feel this way.
Especially since it's somewhat connected to my religion.
But in my defence, nothing in my religion permits anything like this.
I fully believe that this strictly applies to INFANTS only.
Plus, what other motives would men have to go through this?
Like the bus driver in the article; Did he say that he wants to suckle the lady's breast to be her 'brother' or to sexually abuse her??
You decide.









Results will be out in a few hours.
OMG!
Kill me now.

Super Grow!

Sunday's mooting training was cut short.
Hence, no night session.
Though I'm not supposed to say this.. Oh, what the heck.. YAY!!!

Am free for the night!
What better way to spend it then actually going to the bazaar I missed yesterday? *Grins*

As always, finding a steal there was not hard.
In an hour, I managed to find, try and buy 4 dresses and 2 pairs of heels.
(Had to be quick, dinner with the parental unit later~)

All of the dresses were vintage. *LOVE!*
I wonder why vintage isn't as well received as other styles?
If it were, it would've been SO much easier for me to wear my frocks on campus :(
Oh well..

And I managed to find a booth which sells shoes in my size! Hurrah!
And the sisters manning the booths were so nice to boot!
Plus, these weren't worn pre-loved heels.
(I'd have a problem if they were worn.. Heh.)



I have always wanted a pair of bright yellow heels.
The fact that they're platforms helps boost the 'Wow' factor too.
(I find it less excruciating to walk in platforms then normal sky high heels..)
And in all honesty, these are quite comfortable!
I'll be OK as long as I don't have to run in them :s
And For only RM 45 (I KNOW delicious heels retail at around RM 60-200 in M'sia) I happily grabbed them!



These were too cute to pass up :)
Plus, it's an investment.
It's formal.
I can actually wear these to class, moots, court, etc.
And it's only RM45- and I also know that these retailed at around RM 110. (Please don't ask me how I know all the prices for these heels..)
Yes, I've managed to convince myself that I NEED this pair.. Meh.

Apparently, the owner LOVES sky high heels but her boyfriend forbade her form wearing them..
So I guess she just gets kicks from buying them.
Poor girl!









I always known that I'm fond of shoes.
But I think the more types of heels I can carry off, the more serious my NEED for shoes are.
O.O
I can't even pass a fucking shoe retailer without craning my neck to see if there's any cute ones on display!
Oh god, I hope that this craziness slows down when I get too old to rock candy coloured sky high heels. (At least there's less types of shoes I can go gaga over..)
Or maybe it'll be crazier since I'll most likely have more cash to spend on them..
Help me.
T.T

The spirit burns within!

I cant believe I overslept today!
(Arrived at training late- Again. Sheesh.)
I swear that I've set my alarm.
(The scary thing is I cant even remember hitting the off/snooze button. Yikes!)
(=.=)"

I'm almost afraid of going to the competition if this is how I function..
I can just Imagine Zharif or Daniel having to be the senior council just because I can't get my lazy ass up and running.
Oh no..

On a brighter note; my submissions are getting better!
(well, at least I THINK it's getting better.. Heh.)
It's all minor improvements.. But hey, that's better then nothing right?
(T.T)
Let's see how it goes tomorrow.. *Crosses fingers*



Oh, have a listen to this week's song-in-my-head! *Haha*
It gets really annoying when I find myself humming to this while I'm actually mooting!
(I hope Sir is NOT reading this!)



The Fray and Esthero rocks!









Because I woke up so late, I couldn't attend I love Bazaar :(
But twas my fault.
And when it came down to going shopping or mooting, (at the risk of sounding like a total nerd) I choose mooting.
Hands down.
There will be other shopping events, but this is the only chance I have to prove that I have what it takes to represent the uni for Jessup.. despite being the kiddie of the bunch...

A lesser of 2 evils??

While downloading some of my maritime cases, I found this lil clip of one of Uganda's campaign to pass anti-gay laws;




Quite honestly, I've always had mixed feelings about this issue.
(Most of my muslim peers might be sneering at me right at this moment..)
But really, I cant help but notice how vulgar these people are while addressing the issue.
(And let's all be frank here, most Malaysians handle this issue just as badly as the Ugandans.)

They're introducing a new legislation that'll make being gay punishable by life imprisonment (if they are caught participating in gay activities) and even death (for serial offenders).
Plus, civilians must report to the authorities of known homosexuals or risk being imprisoned themselves.
This shall be the most severe punishment for being gay in the world.

Though I do understand that Uganda is a Christian state, and they believe that homosexuality is a sin..
The idea of killing another person based on his/her sexual preference is something that I cant fathom.
How is that different form killing based on a person's race or beliefs?

The fact that the law is being used to turn on these people's rights both saddens and scares me.
What is the line between fighting to abolish other's sins and making a sin yourself??

Though I fully realise that I shouldn't be the one to talk when it comes down to the issue of religion, I dare say that even Islam has thought it's followers not to hate those who are "not on the right path".

Instead we were thought to help those who need it and if our help is not well received, we should accept them as who they are and what they believe in and at least try to live together in peace.

Remember the harm principle people;
As long as they are not hurting you, why should you harm them?

Maybe one of the main reasons why I'm not pushing against gay rights is because some of my very bast friends are homosexuals.
And I find that some of them have more heart then any other self-righteous-society-conforming people I know.
When it comes down to it, homosexuals are not a bunch of gross savages as they have been painted out to be.
Maybe we should be more careful whom we accuse of being savages.
You might find that you're actually one yourself..









To be fair, even heterosexuals eat shit. (Evidence provided by Dan!)
It's called a fetish and is no way directly related to homosexuality.

P/S: Vanguard's report on this is wonderful. Watch it if you have the time.

E Review

"Youth 10 was last week!"
*Sigh*
Yes, I know. But due to my very busy schedule *cough* moots *cough* I haven't the time nor the mood for a full fledged review.
Malas yo.
So since 1 picture = 1 000 words, I loaded a bunch of pics instead :)

I have to admit, aside from the horrendous parking fees (I had to pay RM 11 for parking alone! Damn!) and hectic push-shove atmosphere (There were SO many people!), the whole event was (still) fun.
Though I wont be driving to the event anymore (I actually got lost- AGAIN), I'll definitely be there next year!
(I'll most likely drag some poor soul to drive me around and carry my shopping bags and freebies~)
This shall be a heads up to the boyfriend.
Be ready darling~
Heh.

Went to the event with the bestie this year. (and as promised, next year too!)
-Picture courtesy of Heri, our personal assistant for the day (aka photographer and bag carrier)-

And yes, people are actually running around! (note girl in blue top)
Got so sore from all the pushing and shoving :s

We also got (a lil) overboard with cam whoring~
meh.
Yes, we were not afraid to make total fools out of ourselves..


Went all the way back home to Subang for dinner -as we couldn't possibly afford to eat at the event.
Super duper expensive!
Besides, after all that shopping, I can barely pay for the tolls to get home.
(=.=)"



Speaking of shopping, look what I found!
And at only RM 15 a pop!
Though I still thing it's kinda pricey.. But I absolutely LOVE the material!
The same type used for my (now all time fav) Oasis T-shirt!
Perfect for the abnormally HOT weather we're having~


And it fits perfectly!
Thank god.. I was worried that my huge tummy want fit in the baby tee. *Grins*

Also found this gorgeous jacket in the bargain bin.
Twas the LAST piece and the seller just wanted t get rid of it.
After working my bargaining magic, I finally got this piece for RM 5. (O.O)!



My Hp's camera is so low tech :(
It cant get the lighting right. Cis~
Here's a pic of the jacket in better lighting;




I LOVE this one!!!
One of my best steals to date!
Am so proud of myself! Heh.

I even managed to get a blazer for my trip to Sydney!
Again, it's the only piece left and though the buttons are somewhat faulty- no matter! Even I can fix that!- it fits me perfectly!
And it was selling at RM10!!! (Not original price stated by seller. HAHA)
(Now I just need to remember where the heck did I put my sewing kit..)



This cutie was tucked away deep in lots of other no-so-cute garments..
I have to admit, the whole rack was basically filled with tops that I will NEVER EVER wear, but I guess the digging paid off..
(Though I think that the seller put this cute dress on the wrong rack- but still! the sigh DID say RM5, so RM5 it is!)
Haha.. Poor seller though.. She was trying so hard to mark-up the price..



The accessories were very impressive this time around :)
Thank god I'm such a damned frugal-mugal girl..
If I weren't so mindful of the money I spend, I would've splurged SO much on all the pretty shiny things :P


I couldn't help myself!
For some odd reason, I'm REALLY into the elastic headband thingamajig.
I cant resist them! (and for only RM 8, I wont beat myself over it~)
Heh.

Another thing I couldn't resist- and (to be honest) did not need were these;


Since I've figured out HOW to actually use them, I totally fell in love with them!
These were the most natural looking ones I could get.
Am even tempted to use it on daily basis.
*smack hand on forehead*
That will NOT happen. Heh.
But I'm very sure I'll find an occasion to rock these lovely lashies!

Script for my moots are DONE!

The budget for our trip is APPROVED!

Am so fucking happy!!!