Saya Fat Cat!

Am 'supposed' to be mooting now.
Even my bloody script isn't 100% done yet. *Sigh*
Boo me.

But since I've spent 0 quality time with the family, I've decided to stay home today and just sit quietly home before the parental unit's lines come in..
ie; "Menghilang je reti, tak boleh duduk rumah diam-diam ke??"
(=.=)"

I guess I should at least 'try' to complete my script.. but I'm so LAZY.
Procrastinator indeed. Sheesh.
The boyfriend and my dear friends call me fat cat (Kan ben and ramen??).
I've always denied it, but right now that's exactly what I feel.

It's 9.30 pm and I've spent my whole day in front of the TV and PC.
I even EAT in front of the TV :(
Thank god for yogalates or my whole day would be a huge fat accumulation fest.
(No doubt that the day was a complete waste~)
*Sigh*







NEED TO GET ON WITH MARITIME RESEARCH!
god help me.

Lah! I can do better!

Confession time.
Sometimes.. when I see somebody doing something, there's a voice inside my head that says;
"I can definitely do that better then him/her!"
I know it sounds bad, but I really do feel that way (sometimes). Heh.
But although I think it, I still have enough sense not to say it out loud.
Because the matter of the fact is, even I know that saying you can do something and actually DOING it, are 2 VERY different things.

Today was indeed 'one' of those days..
Today hari flying kick muka sendiri (=.=)"
But I think I needed that..
I know my flaws.. But sometimes, a good kick works too!
After awhile you forget your real capacity.
You get arrogant and you may let yourself think that your better then what you really are.

The knock made me realise that I need get ALOT of things sorted out before I can even dream of being the best.
I'm not that great yet. And I think that's ok.
That just means that I have to work a lil harder.
I'll have my day.
Soon :)

The quote of the day- directed to me (Heh);
"One word- procrastinator"
Hahaha..
No arguments there sir!

Formspring me (not)!

Heads up everyone! Looks like formspring is the new 'IT' thing to hit cyber space!
I did express my curiosity on what exactly is the appeal of this new found app..
And thanks to those generous enough to let me browse around their formspring pages- I've come to understand what all the hype is about.

In a nutshell, it's a place where people can ask you random questions anonymously and the theory is that you have to answer them all.
But whether the answers are honest is a whole other matter.. Heh.

Hmm.. sounds like trouble to me!

Call me a pessimist but all I see is a platform (built by yourself no less!) for random strangers to talk smack about you and not being able to do anything about it. (Since it's all anonymous)
Really, once you take a minute to think about it, what kind of questions would you ask that cant be asked personally??
The questions would either be very personal (like saying that you have a crush on someone but not having the guts to say it to the person face to face) or (this one is more likely) very provocative/insensitive.
This would be a hater's paradise!
To be able to rile up somebody and do it anonymously.. Woot!
Like taking candy from a baby~
A stupid baby at that! (for bringing this upon him/herself..)

But then again, I may be wrong!
So I off I go to inspect some of my friend's formspring pages~
...
...
...
I was right.
Heh.

Most of the questions are pretty harmless (and hilarious!) but others are just plain mean.

So just for laughs, I'm gonna copy and paste some of the questions asked in fromspring- and answer them myself!

1. You stole my bf from me. Home wrecker. You're a fucking bitch. How do you feel about that?
Too bad you couldn't hold on to your man. Boo-freakin-hoo. You snooze, you lose. And everybody's a bitch. Deal with it.
(Poor girl though.. To humiliate herself by sounding so bitter about the whole thing. The anonymous thing doest work in this case. Even I know who she is!)

2. Are you still a virgin?
(O.O)!!
(why would somebody ask such a thing? And more importantly, Who would answer 'no' in such a public space?? Adoi..)
Yes, according to my moot team status, I'm still a 'V'. Virgin bebeh! But I'll most likely lose that when I get to Maritime (=.=)"

3. Since you're so butt ugly, do you think you'd ever get married?
(HAHAHA.. And to top it off, the answer to this question was so angry that I couldn't help but to be amused~)
Yeah, finding another guy who's equally butt ugly out there ain't hard. So I'll most likely to bag a guy anyways :)

The rest were not approved by my Friends to be copied on this blog :(
Oh well, they were very mean anyways.. I don't want bad vibes on my blog! Heh.
In the end, if you have a sense of humour and don't take yourself too seriously, formspring may be entertaining for you.
But if you ain't got thick skin, then save yourself the heart-ache and forget about it!
You'll just annoy your friends by getting all emo. Hish.






Looks like no formspring for me then!
Haha.
Am not a fan of hateful comments.
(And I know people have LOTS of them!)
Nor would I be stupid enough to put myself in such a vulnerable position.
I removed the comment option in my blog for a reason.
*Shakes head*

E Review

Lah' Lah' Land's "Junk yard lah- part2" was quite fun.
Though I had a better time during the 1st installment, this was still a darn good attempt :)
I think the only down side of the event was that a lot of the stuff there were actually left-overs from the 1st "Junk yard lah".


I DID find some to-die-for pieces but due to my monetary constraints, I MUST buy something that is practical for everyday wear. (Sheesh. THAT'S no fun!)
Some of the things that I absolutely LOVED (or not so-loved) were;


This wide shouldered chequered dress is so pretty!
I SO want it!
I even tried it on and it's gorgeous!
The wide shoulder cutting shows off what I love most about my body~
It's the most elegant dress I've ever worn.
It's length is just right over my knees.. Just the right length!
BUT!!!
Too short to wear on campus and too long to go to parties in :(
Oh sure, I can totally imagine myself rocking this dress in some formal shindig or even a posh dinner date, but lets be real people.. When the hell am I going to go to either of those?? (I'm more of a mamak gal anyways)
Hence definitely a no-no on practicality. *Sigh*

Then I set my eyes on these beautiful necklaces..
And it's only RM25! I actually saw this exact same design (and quality) in a shop once and it retailed up to RM80!
(O.O)!!
I would've bought it right away if I wans't on this stupid practicallity rule >:(
That would've looked damned good.
(The silver one is my fav! Held on to that for at least 10 mins before putting it back. Heh)

This sunny yellow pair of heels got my attention from the get-go!
I'm so into the colour this season (for some odd reason.. I'm normally not a 'bright colour' person.)
I flipped the heels over and it was priced at RM35!
And it was in perfect condition!
I'm freakin serious, it looks like the owner did even walk 50 steps in those shoes!
So I try them on.. (This is the FIRST ever pre-loved pair of heels in my size!)
And automatically knew why the owner didn't walk in them.
Even I didn't want to walk in them- Even if they fucking paid me!
The heels were fairly high but that's ok, in my book, the higher the better.
But the second rule is that you must be able to actually WALK in them!
The heels bunch up your toes in so tightly..
No space for toes + Added pressure from the height of the heel itself = TORTURE.

That's such a shame! The heels were beautiful!
To be fair, you could walk in those shoes.
But only if you chop your toes off first. Heh.







Am keeping tabs on what I spend.
Need to save money for the Sydney trip!
MUST!

UiTM update!

Looks like there were some going ons at UiTM while the kiddies were away..
So here are some updates for those going to UiTM (esp those from law school).

1. We welcome (yea ke??) 900(!) new asasi students to our (Very) small law faculty.
Since we have limited space and also limited lectures..
Reports are coming in that lectures have to take more classes than normal so that other lectures can be dispatched to teach the asasians.
On another not-so-happy note for the BLS students, since the law fac is so small, we might have to have night classes in our weekly schedule. *sigh*
However, even the lectures are reluctant about having night classes, so meetings may follow to see if we could avoid it. (I hope so!)

2. Law fac's Cempaka 1,2 and 3 had been installed with new grills! *Yuck!*
Even the top windows are grilled!
Me no like.

I wonder what exactly is their motive of grilling the place up?
To protect the computers inside or just to peeve us?
But then again, rooms with the computers were always locked up.
And as far as I know, there hasn't been any recent break ins..
Hish, looks like they have too much money to burn..


Oh no.. I can just imagine some of the lectures locking up the grills if we get to class late..
(can you guess who??) Heh.
Ugh, having boring classes and feeling caged up at the same time.
NOT exactly a mood booster..
Sheesh.
Rasa macam criminal pulak.. Heh.

3. UiTM international centre had a fire accident.
The fire broke out at around 3-5am on Friday.
The first floor is completely destroyed and the building shall be declared safe/unsafe by the fire brigade by Monday.
The call for help was made by UiTM's vehicle office (right beside UIC).
But most of you may wonder.. Why the heck didn't the pak guards at UiTM call the firemen instead since the International centre is RIGHT BESIDE the sec 7 gate??
Shouldn't there be guards there 24/7??

Well, apparently, they DID smell something burning but they didn't check it out.
???
What the fuck?
You smell something burning and as the security there, you DID NOT just go over and just see what's the cause of it??
News flash, the smell of something burning most likely means somethings IS burning.
Idiots.
Sometimes I wonder WHY we need them??
Oh yes, to give us bloody summons. I forgot.


This is a look from outside. (Sorry about the horrendous pic. Was in a hurry.)

And this is what it looks like inside.
(can you see the filing cabinet? And I think the roof collapsed in this one..)
The whole office floor is pretty much useless now.
And the cause of the fire is still unknown.
Investigations are still going on.
I hope it wasn't arson.

Now, back to UiTM for moots. Ugh.
Now THAT'S yet another story. *SIGH*

P review

Since I've gotten some positive feedbacks from the girlfriends about my bazaar/ film/ music reviews, they've now pushed (blackmailed me more like!) to review products as well.
Typical of them to want me to become their personal lil guinea pig.. hish.
Be grateful I still love you guys anyway :)

This one is for The bestie and her new boy-toy Heri.
(I STILL cant believe the bestie pointed out that he has blackheads and demanded that he do something about it! Hahahaha!!!)

I bought this 2 weeks ago. (I have nasty black heads too!)

BY: Etude House
(Am STILL put off with it's overly pinky-puff shop design. Thank god the one in Pavilion ain't that bad.)
Name: Black head heating coal scrub
Price: RM 24.90

Normally, I'll never splurge much for products (except for the essential facial cleanser- and even that costs less than RM 50!)
I've always been a more DIY gal anyways..
But I thought, why not give it a try??

First of all, the 'heating' sensation is more of a spoof to get people to buy it.
Sure the sales girl did say that it helps 'open up the pores' but I cant imagine my stubborn pores opening up if the 'so-called-heating' only lasts a few seconds!
Really, it only lasts for about 2 or 3 seconds and starts feeling like a normal scrub again. What a let-down :(
In the end, to use this product, you still need hot water to REALLY open up your pores.

secondly, the instructions says that you still need to squeeze out the black head manually. Sheesh.
When I bought the thing, it was fine by me, just as long as I don't have to find hot water every time I wanna remove my black heads.
(do you have any idea what a hassle it is to actually have to boil water and wait for it to cool down to an acceptable temp in my hostel?? Twas a waste of time.)

But now, since I have to use hot water ANYWAYS.
And I still have to squeeze it out manually ANYWAYS.
What exactly is this product helping me to achieve??
Sure, it helps the removing process of the black heads (but only with the help of hot water). You can use any normal scrub for that.
I do NOT think spending RM 25 is worth something like this.
The old fashion (FREE) DIY methods works better!
this gets a 2/10.

Call me cheap (but I do prefer the word 'frugal'. Haha) but when it comes to something like removing black heads, I still think the traditional way is best.
Just wet face with hot water, wash using your everyday cleanser (you can add a lil scrub if you like), rinse with more hot water and SQUEEZE! And don't forget to close up those pores again with cold water.. or else you'll end up with more! :)
You really don't have to break the bank to look good people!

The path towards becoming a skinny bitch

After yogalates yesterday, the girls and I decided to get something to drink (tea. no milk! Sheesh.) and get on with the 'bonding' that our instructor was always yapping about.
Supposedly, when you bond as a group, you stay on the lose-weight bandwagon longer.
Plus, it's kinda like a support system thingamajig. Heh.
Whatever la. Why not give it a shot?

So there we were, in a quaint lil cafe sipping on our tea, sharing our experiences (=.=)"
It was shocking how far some of these girls went to lose weight.
Exercising and keeping tabs on what you eat is fine by me (I do it too).
But NOT eating and busting your ass exercising to lose 5KG in two weeks can never be healthy!
I wonder why she absolutely NEEDS to lose it in 2 weeks..
Maybe she's meeting her online boyfriend for the first time and (maybe) got overboard with fotoshop? (One could only guess! Tee-hee~)
But she looks just fine to me.
As a matter of fact, her body is just about the same size as mine!
And she's such a pretty gal.
She doesn't need to be stick thin.
But alas, my feeble attempts to say this to her was met with an "Oh, shut up. You cant possibly understand what I'm going through."
Like, WTF??
Hmm.. maybe some people just has some major issues to overcome..

Later, one of the older ladies in the group started giving out advice to us 'grasshoppers'.
1) No rice
2) No bread
3) No noodles
...............
(They lost me at item 3.)
What the heck are we supposed to eat then?
Veggies and meat??
(At the exact moment I thought of that, the girl introduced item 5. No red meat. Fish is the best.)
Ugh. Fish is my least fav source of protein :(
This sucks!
By the time they got to item 12, No Ice-cream (because of the rich cream), I created some excuse and went straight home.
There's no way in hell I'm giving up Ice-cream!!!
I'd much rather follow the regime I already have and not starve myself or worse, lose the joy of eating really good food.

The idea of being skinny is awesome, but getting there ain't a picnic. (literally!)







Why is everybody on a formspring frenzy??
Is it some kind of new trend or what?
All of my friends are starting one.
I wonder what people asks them.. since the objective of the thing is to ask someone something that they cant ask personally.
Very curious indeed :)

Big grins all around!

Looks like the end of the month of May will be a blast!
With events going on left, right and center, we'll all be spoilt for choice!

The updates are;

1. LAH' LAH' LAND'S "JUNKYARD LAH PART 2"

Yes people, the vintage on/off little junkyard sale is back on! (Yay!!)
Though it's called 'junkyard', DO NOT BE FOOLED.
This event may be small, but their stuff are far from 'junk'! *Wink2*
This one is a MUST go. Especially if you're a vintage lover.

The event will be held in SS15 Subang.
If you're interested, go to their blogspot to find a map or simply head to Google maps!

I will definitely be there!
(since the first installment was damned good!)

The fist time round, I found this pretty lil number;

I (literally) had to snatch it away from another person. Heh.
We zoned in on the same garment at the same time- thank god I was closer to the rack :)
Fell totally in love with the print! The details are exquisite!
Plus, the dress clings perfectly to my body.*Love!*
And it only costs RM 20! *Jaw drops!*

Have always wanted an outrageous bag (one that's not in full black would be nice)
So when I saw this black and gold piece, I couldn't resist~
(I don't care if the colour combo was last season, to me, they're all the rage!)
Normally, I wouldn't go for pouch bags but I loved the chains, animal print interior and the safety zipper add on!
And it was surprisingly very sturdy!
The girl selling the bag discounted it from the original price or RM65 to RM 25.
And I didn't think twice about getting it!

The second installation (hopefully) wouldn't disappoint.



2. YOUTH 10

This event has everything under one roof!
From music, fashion, sports to conferences.. There's something for everybody.
Will try my darnest to go!
I already have the free tics (to get them too, click on link!), it'll be such a shame to waste em'..
And for those who didn't get the chance to go to Lah' Lah' Land's "Junkyard lah", don't fret, they'll be one of the blogshops participating!
Here's the full list for the bazaar;

*◦Eff-Bombs
◦Itsy Beadsy
◦Frugal Mugal
◦Homey Hommies
◦All Kinds of Everything
◦Blatant Creations
◦So Haute
◦Nakalicious
◦Prettyful
◦Club Mod
◦The Twinz Blog Shop
◦D Looking Glass
◦Past&Present
*◦Heaven For Angels
◦D.U.R.A
◦Delicious Poison
◦Walking Wardrobe
◦Beading Addict
◦Pixelplayground09
◦Supermodel's Secrets
◦Speacesis Art
◦Rawkabilly
◦Mizu Closet
◦My Favourite Tees
◦Rull Collection
◦Klotz Clothing
◦Whooblebublyland
◦Nad- Case
*◦The Survival Store
◦Prince Kasyi Outlet
◦Swag Dolls
◦Brollies
◦Lepetitez-Shop&Style
◦Stepzcreation
*◦Finding Snowflakes
◦Laqoo
◦Oowee Designs
◦Tanks For 5
◦Girlies Barn
◦No Plain Days
◦Ohnamaku
◦Fashion Junkette
◦Cinta Classique
◦Soi 66
◦NaFa Groovie
◦Girls Crew Enterprise
◦Breadcrumbs
◦Purple Fairy Shop
◦Bila Larut Malam
◦Watch It
◦Fashion Packers
◦Little Angel Shoppe
◦Bags Bodega
*◦AliceWonders.com

*The ones I marked are the blogshops I've dealt with before, and they rock!


3. I LOVE BAZAAR


















By far, my fav bazaar!
(I mostly love it coz it's so near my house~) Heh.
And news just in; I LOVE BAZAAR will be a permanent feature! Woot!
I absolutely love this!

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I have always been more of a Christina Aguilera fan over Brit-who?-ney back in the late 90's.
She has more fire and waaay better vocals anyway.
Though she may be too 'commercial' for some, I still like her. So there! Heh.

Her last album 'Keeps Gettin' Better' was (unfortunately) a flop.
With her vocals and fan base, she should've done MUCH better.
I tried to like most of the songs in the album, but it just doesn't do anything for me.

Now (after a very long break), she's back with 'Bionic'.
I don't think it has hit Malaysian shores yet.. Hmm.. Not sure.
Will have to go check out the new releases in stores the next time I go out..

But her new music video for a single in the album is out!
"Not myself tonight" is still pretty new, so I cant find the vid on YouTube yet, but MTV has it!
So enjoy :)
(I expected better vid quality from MTV, but hey, better then nothing right?)

The whole vid was VERY S&M.
Over the top sex appeal, lots of tight leather/PVC and bold make-up.
I guess Dirrrty is back. Heh.
Personally I can never see Christina all tied up bondage style, she looks more like a dominatrix.
(o.O)!!

F reviews

Turns out, it wasn't very hard to keep my mind off things..
A movie marathon does the trick!


*Sigh*
I was hoping that this one will be better then "Confessions of a shopaholic".
But it ranked just about the same :/
I wonder what is Amy Adam's deal?
She chooses these romantic-doey-eyed gals to play but she just makes them sound *ahem* kinda stupid..
I had no problem with the story board.. The girl wanted to propose to her boyfriend on leap day.
I understand the need for the girl to make the first move in a relationship. *cough2* :P
(But the lil runt did make this comment; "Why la the girl wanna go and ask a guy to marry her?? So noob")
I felt like smacking the kid. Hish.
Anyways, the movie was watchable.
Something you ought to watch if you want something VERY light.
It wasn't a total snooze fest- there were some scenes that were kinda sweet..
And the location was beautiful!
Makes me wanna go to Ireland and meet a dashing-tormented guy as well. Heh.
5.5/10.



I am still amazed that the movie hit Malaysian cinemas and I DID NOT KNOW ABOUT IT!
All I have to say is that they should fire the damn advertising team. ASAP!
The whole story board was pretty predictable though..
It reminded me of a lot of the WWII films.
The only difference is that they applied the trauma of war to the recent Afghan war. So points off for lack of originality.
But though I can just about tell what's going to happen, and I do not fancy both Jake Gyllenhaall and Tobey Maguire (they're a lil too scrawny for my taste), the story (surprisingly) had depth.
I got sucked into the whole drama and Jim Sheridan (director) put in just enough time to explain what's happening between the war zone and the household. (Unlike 'The edge of love'. But still, I kinda liked it coz it has Keira Knightley~)
That resulted in sympathy for both the solider and the family he left behind.
It was great that the film revolved around the humanity behind times of war and not the violence and gore.
8/10. (I actually really enjoyed this.)




Ahh.. I've been waiting for this one to get to Malaysian shores since it's positive review in 'Rotten Tomatoes'.
Hmm.. This remake of the Crazies (the original was released on 1973) was (again, surprisingly) good.
Though (again) the story line was VERY predictable, we shouldn't penalize the film because of it- It is a REMAKE after all.
The whole thing reminds me of Resident evil and (the recent) Carriers.
But definitely better than Carriers and ranks about the same as resident evil (if not a tad higher).
But seriously, who the hell watches a suspense film for the story line??
As long as the film makes you jump, scream and squirm at the edge of your seat, then you have just watched a damn good suspense film- and that was just how I felt with this one.
(But to be fair, I am a wussy. So this may not seem like such a thrill for those hard cores out there. But the runt seems to like this a lot. He watched it 4 bloody times in 2 days. Heh.)
8/10.









I now fancy myslef as a critic!
Poyo je.
*Flying kick muka sendiri* Heh.

Low Fat Carrot Brownies

"Breaking up. It happens suddenly.

One minute, you're holding hands walking down the street, and the next minute, you're lying on the floor crying and all the good CDs are missing."

-Kennedy Kasares

Although we haven't broken up, it sure feels like it.
He probably thinks that I'm the most selfish bitch that has ever walked the earth.
Maybe I deserved that.
I DID say that I've forgiven him.
That I've put the past behind.
That I'm over it.
But even I know that I'm not acting like it

But I am trying. By god, I am.
I tried so hard to just suck it in and be stronger.
Why the hell can't I do that??
And I feel so bad that I cant just shove the whole episode at the back of my mind and forget about it.
Where's the fucking off button when you really need it??

I don't know how to explain the feeling.
It's like the person you love has just baked for you a low fat carrot brownie.
It's good for you. No sugar. Less carbs.
But it tastes like fucking cardboard.
You wanna push it away, but when you see the excitement and love from the person who have painstakingly baked the thing for you.. You just cant refuse.
And you eat the damn thing.
Though it still tastes like cardboard and you feel like you wanna puke.
You do it. Coz you know it's good for you.
And you don't wanna hurt your loved one.
that's how it is for me.
I have a fucking low fat carrot brownie down my throat.

The air between us is weird.
Like there's some invincible wall between us.
It all seems so fake now.
And I don't want it to be that way.
Why does everything seem so different?
He's still the same guy I fell madly in love with.
I still trust him.
But something is just.. off.

And it frustrates me that I cant pin point what it is.
Is it because I now know that he doesn't trust me and never had?
Or is it because apart of my love for him died along with the knowledge of that fact?
Or maybe it's just a big deal to me and I cant just let it go?
Or do i just need more time to be comfortable again?
I cant decide. I don't know what's wrong with me.
*Bangs head on wall*








And I STILL feel bad.

I wanna crawl under a rock and come out only for moots. Heh.

When all fails, you never do :)

I have to admit, these past couple of days were rough.
Who would have thought that a single simple and seemingly innocent act may be the bane of your existence for the next month (or longer)!
Sheesh.
But thank god I still have them;

Really, thanks for putting up with all my moody emo crap when you guys could've had a blast with just the 2 of you..
I owe you one!

Continued the sob fest today, but (thankfully) the bestie knocked some sense into me and got me up and running (and laughing) again.
The little minx even told me to buck up and stop being so fucking nice. Haha!
I quote: "A good yell gets to a man's head better then subtle hints. It works like a charm for me. Go try it la!" *ROFL*
But we came to the conclusion that everything/everybody deserves a second chance.
So I'm giving it another shot.
The bestie says that if you try to work it out and it STILL doesn't work out, then both can move on with a clear conscience. And I agree.
Though we may have to start slow (I do not think I can handle full fledged affection at the moment), I'm pretty sure we'll find a way. (I think..)
Having a bestie is the best! It's amazing what a simple mask session and girl-talk can do to your mood :)
(Plus, watching her bicker with Heri gives me a warm feeling inside..)










It's funny how I can easily have a 15 year relationship with a girl but when it comes to men(!), I can barely make a 6 month relationship survive.
So pitiful!
*Sigh* Is that some kind of sign or something?
Maybe I should just pack my bags and move into an all girl relationship.
Hmm.. It doesn't sound that bad if I manage to find somebody like Scarlett Jo..
*Grins* Not bad at all~

Bounty not worth hunting

First of all, I cannot believe I've wasted my precious time to watch this;

The film might sound fun (at least I can give props to the advertising team), but the movie was a total bust.
Normally, I'd be all over Gerard Butler- well, except in another stupid movie called 300 *ahem*.
But really, this movie takes the cake for the worst all-over-the-place plot.
I had to really try to connect the dots in the movie and worse(!), the supposed 'romantic' scenes were just plain boring/awkward/lame.
Boo.

(Spoiler alert!)

The ending was the most UNsatisfying ending to a movie I've ever seen. Not to mention that it didn't even make sense.

1. Before you end the damn movie, AT LEAST get the bad guy first! Sure, they figured out who was the baddie. whippie. Then what??

2. How is getting yourself in jail romantic? If I were the girl, I'd smack him for not trying to freakin bail me out first before getting himself in the slammer! The both of em' must have some weird jail fetish to suddenly (!) get turned on and kiss each other between the bars of the cell. (Don't you have any idea what kinda creepy crawlies are on jail bars?? Gross!)

I have missed TONS of movies due to my busy sched at uni.
Am trying to keep up to date now!
I just hope that the next film is not as sucky.

Premier League Champs yo!

Mummy's day was a blast.

At least it took my mind off.. other matters.

Spent the day blasting off to Linkin Park's Meteora while hanging up some new paintings.

Yes, my mama rocks. Hard! :)

The shopping, yummy dinner and surprise-last-minute-gift made our night.

And I was glad she enjoyed the day.

No yelling and fighting today! (thank god)

I love you mummy! (and daddy too. Heh.)

And the big news!!!
CHELSEA WON THE TITTLE!
In super style at that! 8-nil?? Seriously, how cool is that! Woot!
Twas quite a funny sight; me and mummy rooting for our team while the 2 (red) devils beside us sulk through out the whole game :)
God, I've been waiting for this for SO long.
Bragging rights are mine bebeh!

Did a record run at the track today. Boyeah!
(Am well on my way to getting those killer legs I've always wanted.)
Plus, I (finally) succeeded in touching the ground during yoga stretches!
Though it's definitely NOT a split, but scoff not at my seemingly trivial achievement my friends.. The best I can do just 2 weeks ago was a 45 degree bend!
The lil runt was right, exercising does help relieve the frustration.
Am feeling much better..
*BIG grin*

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I've spent the last 2 hours in bed trying to sleep.
No such luck.
Worse still, I know exactly what is bugging me but I have no fucking idea what to do about it.
*Sigh* I need sleep.

All I can think of right now is how right I've been.
And I know that it's not supposed to be that way..
But I'm so sick and tired of having to consider what my actions will result in. All the time.
Of having to walk on egg shells. All the time.
Tell me what the fuck is going on already!
I am NOT a mind reader. I am NOT Edward-freakin-Cullen. And I suck at guessing anyway.

At times like these, I miss being on my own.
To not care what happens to anybody else and walk to my own beat.
But that road tends to be very very lonely. *Sigh*

Where do you draw the line between giving for the greater good of the relationship and sacrificing too much?
It's all too bloody blurry if you ask me.

I know he doesn't like me going out with my guy friends for a reason.
I feel the same way when he goes out with his girl friends. Especially his ex.
Hell, I don't think anything hurts more than knowing that your own boyfriend still runs to his ex for comfort in his times of need. If that ain't a bitch slap from his ex to me, I don't know what is..
I was there. I was available.
I was desperate to find a way to build that 'link'. But it was denied.
And I hid that pang of jealousy/hurt and placed it at the back of my heart.
Because really, a bond that lasted 4 years ain't that easy to break right?
He needed time and if that meant that he had to go to 'her' in the mean time, then so be it.
And he never knew that was the first time I cried for him.

Pathetic, I know.
Even I cant believe what a complete loser I've been.

So now I'm angry.
Angry for what I did. But maybe angrier that he cant do the exact same thing I did for him.

I don't want to make the 'either/ or' decision.
Don't make me choose between you or my friends.
Because I don't have many TRUE friends to begin with.
Not when I know I'll end up with nothing if we decide to end things.

Call me selfish. I do not care.

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I've been waiting to have a go at the full album since it came out!
But due to time (and monetary) restraints, that didn't happen till now. Heh.

I totally fell in love with Train due to their beautiful number; "Drops of Jupiter"
To this day, I'll play that song in loop till I feel better :)

When I first heard "hey, soul sister", it automatically became my feel good song of the year.
And THAT is something!
Not many songs get through me on the first try.

It pleased me to find that the whole album had a feel good vibe. I like.
Especially since I'm not-so-feel-good at the moment. Twas a good mood lifter indeed.
Though on going Train listeners may realise that they've matured a lil.. More mellow if you may.. Still, who says that's a bad thing??

But Like every album, there's some set backs; the last two songs, I did not like. At all.
The lyrics were all over the place.
I couldn't even understand what one was about and the other one is just plain tacky. Heh.
(Maybe that's why it's the last two songs? Hmm..)

Overall, a 7/10 is due. Not bad.. Considering there are songs that I would like to scratch off the damn album.







Somehow, the lead singer of Train looks like a fairer version of Mamu.
Those of you from UiTM law school, you know who I mean :)

ps: I miss my boyfriend.

If all doesn't work out, I now have plan B!

The exams are OVER. *Whee!!*
The constitutional paper was... hell, why cry over spilt milk right?
Just as long as I do better than last semester (yes, twas really THAT bad), I'm good :)

I know that I'll be getting only 2 weeks of holidays instead of the per normal 2 months..
(Damn, don't say I do not sacrifice for my studies.. Being a lawyer better be awesome! *Hish*)

So my mission impossible shall be to condense 2 month's worth of fun into 2 weeks. Heh.

Starting off with the film that I've been itching to watch;

I've always liked tony stark.
I suspect that it's his devil-may-care attitude that has the ladies (yours truly included) weak in the knees. *Sigh*
He has better lines in the sequel (thank god). I like him better witty anyways.
But there were HORRIBLE lines too;
"Only you can solve the puzzle of your heart"
WTF. Not cool (though it did make me giggle).

But really, the true reason for my tak sabar-ness is because I wanna see yummy Scarlett Johansson~ *drool*

In the risk of sounding like a total lesbo; Scar Jo in normal clothes is great, but her in leather leotards is _____ (fill in the blank) XD
That girl is HOT!
At least now I know what to do with myself if the whole relationship thingy with men doesn't work out.. Heh.

The whole movie pretty much revolves around the development of Tony Stark's character.
I really think 'humanising' the hero was a really smart move.
We're all bored of the can-never-do-wrong and squeaky-clean heroes anyway.
plus, I absolutely love the cute bickering between Tony and Pepper.
I'll rate it a 8/10.

Shafiq called me a dude with boobs -man boobs.
While I was wearing a freakin floral dress (for once)!
WTF la wei!

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Florence and the Machine came up with a new vid for "Dog Days Are Over";




What the fuck is she doing channeling avatar and star wars?? *Shakes head*
As much as I adore her and all her weird kookiness, I have to admit that I don't like this.
I don't care if the original vid was low budget, twas MUCH better.

No matter, the song still rocks :)
Please PLEASE come to M'sia.







Exam tomorrow.
Maybe I should start memorising those pesky cases already..

Call me taiko!

Killer torts is scheduled on Monday.
2 full topics still untouched..
And I spent the whole day out shopping and lepaking with the bestie.
Yea, I am one crazy chick.
Heh.

Oh, and did I mention that I'm also dead broke?
Exams + lots of stress + shopping + sale = A whole lot of spending.
But I do have the comfort of completing my mother's day shopping :)
Almost makes me feel better about spending all my dosh. (Almost la.. *Sigh*)

On a not-so-noble note, I did spend most of my dosh on myself.
New yogalates outfit! Heh.
(I shall justify my purchase on motivation! I shall remind myself that it'll be a shame not to work out when I have spent money to get those (adorable) comfy-stretchy clothes.) *Grins*

I love bazaar was better this time around! Yay!
Instead of clothes, the day seemed to zoom in on accessories instead.
My fav spot was Glitter and Glamorous -I cant seem to find the blogshop at the mo, so a link to her facebook page will do. She accepts orders from there too!
(And yes, being nice earned me some really rad discounts!)
I was totally spoiled for choice! And most are hand made! So annoying/embarrassing moments when you meet someone else who is wearing the EXACT SAME thing you're wearing will not happen! (Urrgh, I hate it when that happens. I call it the perils of going to retail outlets. Boo.)

Adorable isn't it?? The whole thing looks even better up close! Absolutely nothing is above RM50 peeps! Most are very2 reasonable. To be honest, the stuff here are way cheaper than any of the lil booths I've seen so far. So brownie points for that!

Personally, I do not think I can rock the flower-sweet look, but these hand made headbands are sooo pretty! And I've been assured that a piece will not be made twice! Surprisingly, the idea of having something one of a kind appealed to me. So I bought one. Meh.

After months of not hanging out with the bestie, I FINALLY get to see her -Plus her "Oh, he's-not-my-boyfriend-but-we-totally-together)" friend/scandal/boyfriend(?) Heri.

I miss you too bitch! Lol.
And if you flake for our double date, I shall kill you.

Now, back to studying!

Yeah!